Where has my mind gone?

Staying passionate seems so exhausting lately...people around me keep excusing my behavior because it is winter, however I know this is bull shit. I am being lazy and unmotivated by my passions. It's like the people at the airport who step on to the level escalator instead of continuing to walk. I used to be one of the people walking along side it and lately I feel like I am just being dragged down the hall, mindless and standing still. Even this blog is a remembrance, I have started so many posts and abandoned them. Telling myself they aren't good enough. I don't know why I even care, no one follows this blog. Its existence was supposed to be for my own intellectual well being. Am I drowning myself in bad faith here and in my professional life which I can't seem to separate as different aspects of what I call my life.

movies that have me excited in 2012

The Master- Paul Thomas Anderson
The Dark Knight Rises- Christopher Nolan
Dark Shadows-Tim Burton
Django Unchained- Quentin Tarantino
Mirror Mirror- Tarsem Singh
Liberal Arts- Josh Radnor
John Dies at the End- Don Cascarelli
Voyage of Time- Terrance Malick
Life of Pi- Ang Lee
Stoker- Chan-wook Park
The Lords of Salem- Rob Zombie
The Grandmasters- Wong Kar Wei
Snow White and the Huntsman- Rupert Sanders

Solar Flares

I guess I just don't pay attention to the really important dilemma's that living has to offer because I am just finding out about the danger of solar flares. And to be honest I still really don't give a shit. I'm not sure if this is a good quality about myself or not. Building an underground bunker and stocking up on Chef Boyardee and jugs of Poland Sping just doesn't appeal to my sense of urgency in living. The phrase "coming to end" doesn't bother me because I already live my life with a complete and total knowledge that death will succumb  me someday. All of this is also in light of the fact that even the scientists don't have all the facts on the outcome of this horrible solar storm that is supposed to inevitably destroy the earth in December of 2012. I say when it happens we should all act civilly and take action together and for the greater benefit of mankind. What does scare me about such an event is how others will behave. After reading The Road I can't help but think that there is a number of human beings how are sick enough to trap other members of their species in the basement of a house to be fed off of. It actually makes my mind ache thinking about how those around me would act and make decisions.

Most Underrated Films that I believe Everyone Should be Aware Of

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This is a wonderfully acted film with superb characterization and a plot that will grip you and refuse to let go long after the credits have finished rolling.

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Everything about this film is disturbing but it is just that aspect of it that makes every little detail that much more incredible. From the cinematography to the lighting to the out standing acting this film will dig a hole into your heart and bury itself there for eternity.

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